I have a category called “New Patient” on any blog posting that I consider important for people new to dialysis. On the right on the site is a All Posts By Category button. Click on that pulldown and select “New Patient“. This will get you to the information quickly.
I understand you’re in an overwhelming quandary. It’s difficult but not insurmountable. You will get through this. There’s a lot to learn and you will master it over time. Just do what you can about what you can and pat yourself on the back for that achievement. Don’t worry about the things you can’t control right now. You will make it. You’ll reach the mountaintop, breathless, but still here. Let me know what I can help you with. You can leave a comment and if you wish for it to be confidential, let me know and I will not make it public. I add posts frequently. Come back often, read, and learn. Ask questions of the center staff. Don’t be shy. It’s your medical treatment and everyone in the center should respect that.
One blog post I can suggest for new patients is “Dialysis and the First Stick“